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Accept it and don’t run from it After a long day at the college I joined a few days ago, a long tiring day of waiting for my name on the absentee list so I could say yes when my name was called, guess what? I couldn't say it and had to speak to the teacher infront of the students and unfortunately I stuttered despite all the exercises I did and some people laughed, After I finished college and went home to my usual loneliness and routine I realized something and went to reddit in the community that I feel safe with, that day I thought of twisted and weird ways to avoid saying yes when my name is called and I tried to think of certain ways but I didn't do them and avoided it, I understand the feeling that you go through when you do the routine things that any person does and don't even think about speaking up, understand that feeling of frustration and helplessness and inferiority and fear and anxiety that you feel, but guess what, no one cares, I know this shit hurts bad but this is the reality of this cold world, I just ask you not to put pressure on yourself, do not blame yourself too much, do not destroy yourself from the inside, and do not grind your feelings and psyche. I know that this feeling is bad, but you must accept the problem and accept yourself as you are and try to develop yourself. Accept yourself and do not run away from yourself. When my mother pressured me to go with her to a psychiatrist two years ago, and during talking and speaking, I discovered that she was the reason for my stuttering problem because of her domineering and harsh style, screaming and hitting for the most trivial reasons, and the absence of discussion and emotional support. Since that time two years ago until recently, I have put a lot of pressure on myself and my relationship with my mother has deteriorated, and until now, I feel very remorseful about the isolation I did under the pretext that I do not want them to see my stuttering, and automatically I completely disappeared from people and no one talks to me anymore, literally. Accept yourself.