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Once I realized I could say my name without a problem anymore I also realized that half the time the moment they ask for my name I stutter on the first word..like "my." But I'm not really stuttering on my, I'm just stuttering no matter what I'd say. The fear and association of stuttering when saying my name became so engrained that even long after I can say it with ease, I'm given a huge heart rhythm boost like it skipped a beat and already feel problems but once I get past the first word I say my name with ease. So basically...it was never my name...it was someone asking me that triggered it...just as it isn't the word "my." My emotional attachment is so strong with stuttering and introductions that.. it's not like the person has any magical powers when asking me, it's how deeply engrained it's been for me to stutter when having to introduce myself. It doesn't always happen though but I found it fascinating and eye opening when it did and I realized long after my name became any other word and I could just about consistently say it without issue, I was still stuttering on introductions, how ever I wanted to introduce myself on some occasions. What ever word choice didn't really matter, the moment they'd ask, I'd feel it and start saying "huh um huh" because my speech was entirely thrown off.