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Rough day, first vent Very new to this sub. Just wanted to make a post because I'm having a rough speech day. I stuttered a lot as a kid in school. I'm sure like many people here, I spent a lot of time crying in the hallway because kids are assholes. I feel like my stutter had a lot of sway on my personality growing up (especially being a fraternal triplet with a brother and sister that didn't stutter at all). People always commented how much quieter I am compared to my siblings, pointed out how shy i was, etc. I guess I avoided talking for fear of stuttering. It slowly got better and as I grew up, I sort of grew out of it. I feel like there were periods where it would come back but not very severe, it wouldn't affect my everyday speech, and then go away again after some time. But here I am at 26, and in recent months my stutter has come back stronger than ever. My really bad problem words (pretty much every time I pronounce them) are ones that begin S and F, and some lesser problem words are M and N. Along with the sounds I have quite a few random tics/physical responses while I'm stuttering that occasionally help, but mostly make me feel even more embarrassed. I take lots of quick, sharp inhale breaths often accompanied by rolling my eyes up. I often find myself turning away from people while trying to talk to them (probably to subconsciously hide my facial expressions). The most common one however is pinching between my nose and lips (an especially annoying when I have a coworker who points out everything in this age of "don't touch your face"). My frustration with this rises every time it happens but i'm glad i found this sub where people get it, its impossible to explain what it feels like to stutter to someone who doesn't deal with it. Rant over. Thanks for reading. Does anybody else have random tics or mechanisms that they cant help but do when they stutter too?