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Security Guard My stutter is pretty bad so my verbal communication is not that reliable, especially in high stress situations. I've been trying to find a job for a while and my father insists that my stutter won't affect my work if I become a security guard. I also have a long distance friend who I mostly text instead of talk to who constantly tells me I can be whoever I want and the stutter will only affect me "if I let it" and I just need to "believe in myself". She even thinks I can be a police officer, radio host, 911 operator, etc. I guess I can also be the Pope or the Queen of England, with that logic (I'm a man). I also have severe social anxiety and depression and she knows that. These people don't understand how bad my stutter gets. My friend lives in another state and my dad doesn't go with me to anywhere I have to talk. I obviously stutter significantly less around him because he's my Dad. I really think they are underestimating my stutter and it kinda feels like I'm being gaslighted. People who don't stutter always act like they know more about stuttering than I do. It's really frustrating. TALKING IS VERY EFFING DIFFICULT AND INEFFICIENT! They don't believe me. I'm imagining myself now trying to command someone to put down a gun. "(Long pause trying to get out first syllable) P-p-put d-d-the gun down rrrr-rrr-rrrrrright n-n-n-ow!" All while having face twitches and hand movements trying to speak those six words. That's an extreme example, but even saying something as simple as good morning when passing someone is difficult. Sometimes I give up if the person doesn't stop and let me finish my greeting.