I get ya, I wish you the best of luck. I was in a similar place when I was around your age. I am now in my thirties. Still have a severe stutter. That said, I have a good job where I am paid well and respected. I have a woman that loves me and three children. You hear a lot of pep talks because a lot of people with varying severities of stutter are succeeding with life and getting on with it. Imagine you lose both legs tomorrow. You can claim disability and wallow in your misery or you can strap on some (probably) uncomfortable prosthetic limbs and get on with it. I think this is the mindset of a lot of people in our position. Around your age, I was depressed, lonely and angry. One day I resolved to do something about it. Hit up a bunch of old friends. Asked a bunch of girls on dates. Applied for a bunch of jobs. I had a lot of mixed experiences but really the whole thing was very positive. Stuttering is shit but it is a lot worse when it becomes the focus of your life. Getting to the place where you think "despite my stutter I am going do blah." You will find you often do better than just get by. You start succeeding and your stutter seems less of an anchor.