Well written and thanks for sharing. The one thing I’ve realized is that my stutter is likely NOT going anywhere. After that realization, I have options: 1. Kill myself, 2. Live depressed bc of endless shame, 3. Try to enjoy my life, I decided to select number 3. The only way I derived most enjoyment out of life is to love myself and curate my self-worth almost all by myself. I enjoy me. I enjoy doing things with me. I enjoy speaking to myself. When we have a fluency barrier, it’s hard to derive self worth from others. It’s possible to have relationships and friends, but as with ALL HUMAN LIFE, 99% of our world is internal. That’s good for us speech lackers. Now curate your internal world to what you love and all the things you love about yourself.