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My Silent Story My Life has been full of Anger, Frustration, Sadness, and Shame, living in a rough end in london with this condition has made me social anxious, worried that someone may be silently judging my inability to articulate my thoughts, my inability to not express my emotions that was being suppressed, my primary school did give me free speech therapy but that mainly included techniques on how to stutter less not to accept it, not teaching me acceptance of my condition made me hellbent to get rid of my stutter it lead me to go on a voyage on the seas in hope of finding a cure to the condition, a voyage which would be long, depressing and full of disappointment, I've tried apps breathing techniques, slowing down literally anything and nothing works, at the time I was feeling my worst i was 12 years old, I didn't have a phone at the time or any way of venting to someone, as my parents and siblings severely underestimated how much my condition effected me despite my attempts explaining to them, that year I had became a prisoner of my own body, communication was a chore, I slept crying most nights because most days I got mocked for my stuttering which led me to feel so bad, I lost my motivation to program and my motivation to do work which made my grades plummet incredibly, I was a good kid, I was obedient I lived my life dreading the next day to come and waiting for the next insult over and over again, when will the tyrant bestowed upon me go, I'm lost I dont know what to do, I'm 14 now and I still cannot articulate my feelings and my emotions in the way I want to in real life thank you for reading my story sorry if some parts didnt make sense. Edit: Thank all of you for the suggestions and understanding it really made my day.