They might have heard me stutter once or twice but I hardly talk at all because of it..People are fucking judgmental and are not good at hiding it at all.. sometimes I can laugh my stutter off but when I see someone who thinks they are better than me smirking at my stutter like it makes me less of a person than them it really pisses me off and discourages me from even attempting to form connections. I work out I do powerlifting routines squat,bench,deadlift ect, and dabble in bodybuilder type excercises. My diet is about half and half most days I'll just eat rice,eggs,protein shakes,oatmeal,ect and somedays ill just come home from work and drink a few beers and eat fast food. I did date a girl at work once and as you said it was a terrible fucking idea. Never again. But it doesnt stop me from being attracted to these women and having fantasies of intercourse. I just need more activities where I'm interacting with people. The only real social interaction I get is at work and people who work the counter at gas stations