Wow thank you! That's actually some really helpful insight. I guess in retrospect I really haven't been talking all this past year. I'm a lot more shy in general so I'm usually the one keeping to myself either way, but quarantine has really doubled down on that. One of the main things that confused me was exactly why it resurfaced and got so severe all of a sudden when it was going so well - perhaps a school thing or something related to my friend circle. I know the causes can be different for everyone, but I will try talking a bit more.