The mushroom is a teacher. It will show you want you need to see in order to set you on a path of healing. It wont nessasarily do the work for you. If stuttering is your proplem (like it is/was with me), the mushroom will guide you towards a way of thinking helping you realize WHY you stutter. You said at some point you didnt care if you stuttered. This is such deep teaching, which nobody really seems to want to understand a lot of the times. Most of us stutter, because we are afraid to stutter to begin with -- because we're afraid of how the person we talk to will respond or think about us. So before talking, youre already in a state of fight, flight or freeze, based on your fearful beliefs of something that hasnt yet happened yet. Stuttering itself, like blocking for example, is the freeze part kicking in. For most people, stuttering is in fact "self-induced", but it's super nuanced. Theres a lot of trauma en fear behind why we stutter, which 100% needs to be addressed when trying to heal from it. Having zero fear to stutter, will lead you to healing. Now.... this is where a lot of people have set backs. Why? They say "I lost all my fear for stuttering, but i still stutter!" And then they fall back into the fear trap, saying to themselves: "see! Something is wrong beyond my control! I still stutter!" And then go back to feel fearful. This is the trick anxiety will play on you. We forget, Stuttering has been a huge part of their lives, and has dictated pretty much everything in their lives. Stuttering has become a way of speaking like an accent. Accents needs time to change. I takes time and effort, conscious effort, to learn how to speak "properly" again. You know how some people automatically say "like" after every few words? Or automatically say "you know what im saying" after evey sentance? Or people that constantly use cuss words? Or things such as accents? A british person living the rest of his life in the US won't lose the british accent (which has become automatic) unless he/she actively choses to work on changing their way if speaking and create new "automatic" patterns. New default ways of speaking. With people who stutter it's in a sense the same. We need to re-build speech patterns and ways of speaking. So don't feel bad when you've lost all fear for stuttering, but still find yourself stuttering. It takes time and effort to in essense re-learn how to speak. The #1 thing is to remain unfearful of your stutter. Allow yourself even to be stutterer. Acceptence is a huge key. Without this, recovering is going to be incredibly difficult. I'm sure the mushroom was trying to show you what acceptence can do for you. Good luck! From a fellow "recovering" stutterer.