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Time to let go So I haven't been active on this subreddit for quite a while and I'm sure many others have too but I wanna share something before big changes start occurring in my life for the good or worse. I've applied a month or 2 ago for this fullstack software dev internship that lasts till December and from next year I get placed into a proper company depending on how I do. But essentially it trains all your skills. Communication, teamwork, presentation skills etc not just coding and technical skills. It's a agile training company and they force you under intense pressure. When I went for my internship that time, they could see how bad my speech blocks were and ig thats why employed me. Weekly sprints would be occurring meaning. Whatever I learn for the week. I present it in the form of theory and coding project with my team. I won't get into much detail but bottom line is. My first sprint is next Friday. And uhm I saw what the expectations are. It's the whole department in the hall and 6 managers including my tech mentors at the back judging with scores. It's very intense. I admit I'm extremely paranoid. Seeing people present this week I felt as if I was about to pass out just by sitting there. It's about time I let go. On my induction days I was already forced to speak and introduce myself on a camera and in front of the other 40 odd students. Everyone knows I stutter and maybe that's what's pushing me to the edge of letting go. I don't know what's gonna happen when I present. Whether I speech block on every word or I faint (I'm kidding) I'll try not to. What I know for sure is... everyone or most knows that Im suffering and sure maybe I'll get some giggles. The first presentation will always be the worse. Second one would be easier and third will be even easier. I just hope I don't drag my teams score completely to the ground. Any advice? I know I will speech block. But is there a way for me to make it at least less painful for the crowd and for myself? I just wanna finish my part and answer questions. I really am just about to let go and let shit hit the fan. That's the only way I'm gonna improve. It's been a long journey of hiding and I want to let go of this fear that's holding me back life. And I hope anyone reading this has or will be able to also let go of whatevers holding you back. Because that's what stuttering is. The fear and worry that eats you from inside is what holds you back from your full potential. A diamond is made under intense pressure. Just remember that. Pain. Crying. Worry. Stress. Anxiety. All of these and more is what makes you stronger. Thank you reading this. My Grammer is terrible I know I apologize.