We are sisyphus...

We are sisyphus... Everytime I open my mouth to speak I feel dread, Anxiety, And hopelessness at the same time. All while trying to keep a straight face and hope that the stutter ends quickly. No matter how much positive self talk I give to myself I can never escape the feeling of hopelessness whenever I stutter. We are just like Sisyphus...pushing that boulder up the hill, and watching it roll back down again after every speech block. "One must imagine Sisyphus happy". Pffft yeah right lol.