I’ve found myself thinking about this from time to time. But then, like another commenter mentioned, you’re dealt a hand that you play with. Like everyone else. I logged in after a while today and Reddit asked me to style my Avatar - it auto-generated an avatar - I didn’t like the style (hair, smile, etc), and continued to click on Try-Again until well, until I got tired. Similarly, life makes it hard for anyone to get a combination they’re perfectly happy with. But you focus on the strong traits and make the best of what you have. You have a lot of abilities that others don’t - make good use of those. “What If”s rarely helped anyone.