Everything is so scary im scared

Everything is so scary im scared Im 16 years old and i started stuttering since i was born,im so scared of my future i think i should just die I always stutter everytime i talk,Its really worse when Im excited,nervous or scared i don't like it people sometimes laugh or just stare at me like i have dangerous disease Sometimes i get panic attack on nights thinking how miserable i am,how worthless i am,how useless i am, surely i wont get a job because of the stuttering I dont wanna live anymore everyone is so mean maybe my family would be happy if a dissapointment like me who can't even talk properly just gone