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My Stutter and Me Everybodies stutter is different, and every stutterer is different. I think about these words now as I ponder about my life as a stutterer. I guess I should explain myself, or rather explain about myself, a little bit. My stuttering story is quite stereotypical, but bear with me readers please. I began speech class at the age of two and would continue on with it for ten years, but I wish I could be in it now aswell. At two I was barely speaking and what I did say was rather incoherent. The incoherence continued throughout my young childhood. I understood what I said and my close family members did aswell, but nobody else. I was a stutterer and my letter pronunciation was to be honest, horrendous. I hear so much about people having stutters that cause social anxiety and are troubled by it deeply, and I feel out of place with my experiences. In a good or bad way I don’t know. My stuttering never held me back and caused me to not speak or speak less as a result of anxiety. I did experience hell for it during elementary school and so forth and hell in general during those years, but I never linked it to my stutter. Skip forward to now. I don’t hear my stutter almost completely on a normal basis. As a good rule of thumb for me, I know that my stutter is especially bad at that moment if I can hear it. It is not that I am not stuttering on a daily basis, I know I am. I just stopped picking up on the normal stutter for as long as I can remember. I still hear my mispronunciations of words as those are less common for me, but this isn’t a mispronunciation subreddit so I’ll get back on topic. My stuttering is enhanced by adrenaline an insane amount, or I just say if I experience any strong emotion that’s not calm, I will stutter more. I stutter around specific people more then I do others for some reason. I hear a lot also about how stutterers can almost tell when a stutter will be in a sentence and avoid it, and I never really understood it. Since I can’t hear my stutter, I don’t know where it is in a sentence. I can guess that if I’m going into a stressful situation I will stutter more by logic, though. Wow that was long and awfully ranty. I hope this all makes sense to all of you and you can see where I am coming from and provide feedback. Thanks for the read!