I feel like I could stop stuttering but I'm too afraid to do it

I feel like I could stop stuttering but I'm too afraid to do it I think that if I wanted, I could stop stuttering from now, but my mind just blocks me. Basically sometimes, when the stuttering comes, I get a strange feeling. This feeling is like when you want to do something you know is dangerous, and your mind is blocking you, like I dunno jumping from a cliff or something like that. With me it's the fact that I could not stutter on the next word, but my mind is like: No, it's too risky too speak clearly, you have to stutter. If I focus a lot and I "jump from the cliff" I can say my words clearly, but most of the times this feeling just blocks me. Has this ever happened to anyone else or I am just crazy? Thanks and sorry for the trippy post.