I hate my stutter.

I hate my stutter. Today me and my friends played a game where we named anime one by one in a circle and the person that can’t say an anime loses. I tried so hard to say the names but my stutter just doesn’t let me say it and I ended up forfeiting.It’s so frustrating and I almost cried xd. Why do I gotta live like this..I could have been a more extroverted person…not afraid to talk to new people/give presentations/just do anything in general.. I did a personality test and I’m ESTP. Fuck this stuttering, I want to talk to people so badly but my stutter will just get in the way. For those who have mental breakdowns, how do you cope with it? Cuz I really need it man. In the future my jobs/social life all depend on it…