Yes, I'm sure these events and feeling sound familiar or imaginable for most of us here. I've been stuttering for as long as I can remember, any kind of presentation was always closely connected to anxiety, fear, hopelessness, stress, panic and blocks. I'm sure stuttering has been/is the main reason for me to develop my strong social anxiety and for my horrible sense of self worth. For me, the schooltime and the presentations are over but since I can't even say my name (in bad cases neither first nor last name) blocks still haunt me in everyday life and every time I am supposed to introduced myself. I also don't stutter almost at all when talking to myself. I am neither able nor supposed to recommend you medications. It's a long journey but the one thing that has helped me a lot it to love and accept myself. Stuttering is not your fault, you are fighting harder battles than those who don't stutter and you are able to ask for tolerance and respect for it. A couple of months ago I had my eyes opened. I introduced myself, stuttered, was laughed at again, moved back in my chair blaming myself and trying to calm my crying heart. A couple of days later I thought about what happened. Not a single soul knows how I felt or what feelings of anxiety and panic I was going through at that moment, yet they laughed. I was tired of this shit. Tired of blaming myself, speaking, trying to deal with myself. This is not your fault and it doesn't change your worth. Stand up for yourself, you have full permission for it. Do it for yourself, I believe in you. Now go see your girl. I believe if she likes you, she'll like your stutter. If she doesn't accept you, she also won't accept your stutter. All of that is our of your reach yand Your stutter doesn't define you.