Hey mate. Your English is just fine, don't even sweat it. Just to let you know there is nothing wrong with you, you're not a weirdo, freak etc, whatsoever. You're just someone who has a stutter and even the greatest legends, well-known people all over the world are stutters. There is no shame in that. Secondly, as long as you're someone who tries to change the world, who tries to help others, the ones who need it the most, do good deeds, then you're a great man in my book. The thing I have noticed about us stutters what bothers us the most is "anxiety" and afraid of being laughed at or not accepted. But who cares? Your crush rejected it? Who cares, brother, life goes on. Your "so-called friends" are talking wack behind your back? Their loss, brother. See, our main issue is that we care too much about things we don't even need and friends who arent even worth a dime. Don't ever lose hope, mate. I know what Im talking about because I was a chicken when I was your age. I was afraid to engage with people, to make a move on a girl etc. I was a coward, but now I'm not. If you want, we can exchange phone numbers and have a call and Ill try my best to motivate you a little, make you feel a little better about yourself and your goals and hey, you can do that to me as well. It's all about helping each other and sticking around. It's easy to walk away and not to help, but it takes a great man to stay and face your inner demons.