i hate myself

i hate myself so im on vacation in Egypt right now and im at a hotel with very friendly staff, i was at the pool and i went to go get a bottle of water, there's this bar kind of thingy were you can go tell the worker what drink you want and he'd give it to you for free. both of us are arabs but he pretended like he didn't understand my accent when i told him that i wanted a bottle of water, i repeated the phrase a couple of times without stuttering and he still pretended like he didn't understand my accent, JUST WHEN I STARTED TO STUTTER HE GAVE ME THE FUCKING BOTTLE WHILE HE WAS LAUGHING AT ME i fucking hate my stutter