I won’t type to tell you to convert. If you want to know more about the Christian God, I would contact the local church. And if you still decide to tell God to fuck off, more power to you. Just know a major onus He helped me was with my parents divorce. But again, i don’t wish to tell you to convert. If ur curious about how a Christian would stay strong during hardships, read about the book of Job. This book is a prime example of life sucking and a man sticking to his faith