I’m going to beat this and so will you.

I’m going to beat this and so will you. Hey there, My name is Ryan. Was not a stutterer until the age of 18 or so, cant explain the reasoning, but it is been a mild to extreme part of my life for almost 9 years now. I am going through the absolute roughest portion of it now, as it is hard to even have basic communication with anyone at work or with friends, and ordering food at a restaurant has basically been a death sentence. I’ve read several books on it, some that have helped me in moderate proportions for a good amount of time. I find that when I have more stuff going on in my life, the less extreme it often is. But recently it’s been nothing more than my job where I have to interact with clients and coworkers consistently, and it’s all I think about. My biggest problem recently is that my brain feels so overactive when trying to speak or listening to another person and I can literally visualize the words my mind wants to say, and that just leads to insane and crippling blockage and have Been trying to deal with ways to get rid of that. I’ve recently started documenting every interaction I have throughout the day and the periods and extremes of blockages or stumbles I encounter. Even have started experimenting with self hypnosis or at the least meditation and auto suggestions. I have changed to a more diaphragmatic breathing pattern, and I’m reading aloud to myself constantly. I don’t know how, but I am more determined than ever to rid myself of this problem for good. Hopefully looking to update this post within a month with some significant progress. Best of luck to all of you that are on this journey as well, and if anyone needs someone to talk to via DMs here, my door is open.