Thanks for the graphic. It's just so hard to get out of my comfort zone, because I feel like you'll be judged even if subconsciously, I know they mostly likely won't. I keep telling myself that they're going to move on from this discussion a minute later, that they will probably forget about this talk with you a few hours later. But nothing ever works for me. I'm okay with talking at low anxiety situations, if a stranger asks me for anything I'm pretty much golden and I'm very grateful for that. What I hate is how my body becomes filled to the brim with anxiety the moment the pressure is on me. Professor calling your name out and having to say present? My mouth physically cannot say this fucking word "Present". I have to wait 3 to 6 seconds before I actually say it and even then my body would feel as if I just escaped a damn tiger chasing me. Even when just answering simple questions in a classroom, I become nervous as shit and my stuttering just feeds off of that and negates my speech. It's so damn tiring having to spend so much time in my brain always trying to calm myself down or distracting myself to remove the anxiety. But nothing fucking works. The pandemic just utterly fucked my progress and confidence and it feels as if I am back to stage 1.