never again

never again Today I witnessed my struggle in speaking so clearly. Man that's sad. Today I went for a haircut and it was one very extroverted barber( i always avoid him but today I had no other choice) and he talked w me until the haircut was over. As every barber shops do there will be a mirror infront so I had to fucking see myself stuttering and get to know how I look like when i stutter, all those wierd expressions I make, my eyes twitching etc . No wonder people jus ghost me after first convos .and I have no choice but jus stare at myself or look at my feet as he continued to talk to me. The haircut was great but now i developed a new insecurity.