Your 18. You have a chance, try everything you can to change & find somebody if that's what you want. I'm 31 and feel like you do. I've had a extremely hard life from stuttering and other unfortunate occurrences. So believe me I understand even more so than you do. 1 of my fears is dying alone, like my 78 year old neighbor who lived 2 houses down from me. He wasn't friendly & seemed miserable and broken by life. Never married, no friends, no family who checked on him ever ect. Last year we found out he had been dead for almost 2 weeks in his bed and nobody cared to notice until the mail piled up and the smell from the body started to leak out of the house, his body was in very bad shape by then ofcourse...I thought to myself, that's going to be me in the future if I make it that long..not that I care about my remains after I'm dead. But still, this poor bastard what ever was wrong with him he let it beat him and never found love or friendship...According to my Dad he said he was never married & was a only child...Idk about you guys but I don't want to live out my life like that and in my old age be miserable and in pain until I die and nobody knows or cares...its a sad thing. Your 18 with a whole life ahead of you. If you want to live a happy life you can. Other stutterers have. Don't be like my neighbor and let something deprive you of experiencing life.