The thing is - they probably don't even know that I stutter, and that it's a disorder which I cannot control. They probably think that I'm just a dumbass weirdo, who just never learned to talk. And I'm not ready to talk about my stuttering with anyone yet. When someone (usually, from family) mentions stuttering (example, character appears on TV who stutters), I get incredibly uncomfortable. I can't even joke about it. That's why, sometimes, I think most of stuttering is severe because my shame is attached to it. That's why I stay quiet. Even though everyone in office knows that I can't speak fluently (for whatever reason), I still try to avoid stuttering in front of them by not talking.