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Hi! This sounds very familiar. I talk with a lot of people on teams/skype in my job since I work from home. I started working from home after the pandemic hit, and my boss doesn't care where i'm located since the office in my city is all sales and i'm a programmer. I talk all day with programmers, dealers and management in other offices. At this point in my life i think most people doesn't even notice my stutter (maybe i'm delusional though), but is has gotten a lot easier for me the last 10 years. But I get exhausted from talking so much. When I take notice of my body/mind in a conversation i'm very tense, often sitting in crazy uncomfortable positions with a high heart rate. It builds up from one conversation to the next, and by the end of the day my head is swimming. At the end of the day I guess my stuttering is fairly obvious, either that or they think i'm taking a long time formulate my thoughts. The last year i've started to work on it, taking time to breathe and take pauses. I'm always stressed about getting the words out fast. Even though my stuttering is mild now, it used to be medium/severe, and i think my brain has evolved this way. I do some meditation, and I try to bring that experience into conversations.