Hey... I know these feelings, I understand and I'm sorry for what you're going through. You are worthy of connection, support and apprechiation and you are stronger than you might realize right now. There's is one thing I've learned (and am still in the process of learning) in my life and it is that you are more than your stutter. You are worth more than what your stutter tells you. There are people who like you and love you exactly for who you are. I've been learning a lot about psychological illnesses and it made me understand that any of this is not your fault and there are symptoms that are just symptoms and do not reflect your worth or really any part of who you are. This goes for problems like depression but for stuttering as well. You have a problem and you are I usually approach these situations with this mindset: I don't mention it for as long as nobody notices it, not everybody immediately needs to know about it. When I block very much or if it gets really awkward and I can't mask it then I try to mention it. I say I have a stutter/speech disorder and most of the time this is enough to get a lot of empathy and/or understanding back from others. –and if I'm not accepted for who I am? Then I don't have no energy to waste with that person, honestly. In summary – and trust me, I know how difficult this can be and sound – try to be yourself and if it gets awkward, say something about it. Others have absolutely no right to make fun of you or tell you how you should feel. And it's completely valid to just walk away or protect yourself if you feel hurt by others. Stay true to yourself and take care of yourself! I wish you all the best! Cheers