is it just me?

is it just me? I dont know when it started. Not talking about my stutter. but my habit of forcing myself to not open my mouth, almost challenging myself, when guests or friends of family come over. I only speak when I absolutely have to. Now I have to make a conscious effort to actually say words other than "I'm fine or "Namaste" nd all other obligated friendly exchanges. It's kinda sad that I let myself get in this position. what's even sadder is that no1 other than me seemed to notice this lol. is it just me?