Hi bro , i relate to this so much as a person who attempted suicide because of my stutter, i some times wish if i can just turn the switch off as easily as pressing a button. But it does not work like that in life gigantic waves and thunderstorms will come falling down upon you and all you could do is to keep sailing the ship through it hoping there is sun shine and peace beyond the storm , and that is what i am doing right now. ​ Wish you all the best Friend