postr/StutterApril 20, 2022

feeling hurt after my dad indirectly talks about my stutter

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feeling hurt after my dad indirectly talks about my stutter ive written here so many times idk if yall will be tired of me but i just need to rant. so on my way back from school, i was sharing with my parents in the car the new stuff that i learnt today and the things i found particularly interesting. i guess all my thoughts were clogging up in my brain because i had severe blocks right there and then while talking to them. after i was done, my dad said, "is this how u did ur presentation in class?" i knew exactly what he meant but played dumb anyway. i said, "huh what do u mean" what he said kinda hurt me. he was like, "u kept pausing every 3 to 4 words. if u do this in school, the teacher might mark u down for low confidence." and he KEPT ON FUCKING EMPHASIZING on how i paused after a few words 😐 it was embarrassing bc my brother and my mom were in the car just listening to the conversation. i cant help but feel so embarrassed. like yeah okay i have severe blocks, so what? stop fucking making a big deal out of it

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional Experience

Subthemes

Avoidance & SubstitutionOverthinking & MonitoringShame & EmbarrassmentFrustration & AngerAnxiety & Social Judgment