Hey, love the message you're sharing. What's the saying ? Fall down 10,000 times, get up 10,001 times. As stutterers, we live a life where our voice constantly fails us. As it's only natural that we don't want to use something that has a horrible track record. But you know what? Having a stutter doesn't mean you're a lost cause. There are many people out there who have a stutter like yours that go on to live full fulfilling lives. There are many celebrities, many of them musicians and actors, who stuttered like the best of us. Many ordinary working class people stuttered so much in childhood and adulthood but they still have their own family and a career. Some of them are in this reddit group. You can speculate that those people don't have as worse a stutter as you do but you're just making up assumptions because you don't truly know. If you can't remember the last time you've done some self therapy for your speech then something is wrong. It means you've given up searching.