I immediately tell people I stutter when we interact and it doesn’t take much pressure off for me. I still feel like a ‘retard’ all the time for lack of a better term. It’s not even that people are being mean. I just hate dealing with this constant issue. I can’t talk to a group, can’t talk to someone who isn’t within arms reach, etc. Internet relationships are very unsatisfying to me. I’d like personal relationships. I don’t have anyone I could just invite over or grab a beer with. I’m lonely now and don’t see that changing anytime soon. I’m glad you were able to figure out how to live with it, I hope I can too.