This is the evil voice in your head telling you that, which self-reinforces and just compounds this distorted self image. Believe me, I've been there too. But what I learned is that anyone who would judge a nice person, a good looking one at that, by their face shapes when they block, isn't the type of person you'd want for a friend or gf *even if you had no blocking/stutter at all.* Think about that. Think about how you treat people when something, anything, is unique or "weird" or even downright shocking. Do you treat them poorly? Do you dismiss them? Nope, I'm sure you don't. You probably don't even think much about these things after the first time or two, because humans are experts at adapting to unusual things. If we weren't, how the heck could we focus on anything? I live in NYC and lemme tell you, walking 3 blocks to the train I must pass by 100 people, each with some odd, unique or notable characteristics. No one cares. They care that you're friendly, kind, and considerate. I'll also tell you this -- and I've been blocking/stuttering since the 4th grade and that was at a time where the years began with 198x so I've got some experience here -- What I've found is that when you like yourself, and are passionate about your interests and are interested in other people's interests, you become a magnet. And tbh, I've found 100% of the time, no exaggeration, that girls actually found my blocking tics and facial contortions ENDEARING. Want proof? Check out a film named "A Fish Called Wanda". There's a character in it who has a severe stutter but the female is super into him. Why? Because he's part of one of the two groups of people in the world who are the most humble, kindest, helpful and passionate people on Earth: Stutterers and recovering substance addicts. Yes! I am serious. And of course, I hope you (or anyone) never has to go through the hell of substance abuse and addiction. But, just like those of us who block and/or stutter, it's such a grind, such suffering, so difficult to "not do" a thing that everyone else seems to "not do" effortlessly, we truly understand and EMPATHIZE with anyone else who has had struggles of their own, or who have suffered. And this makes us HUMBLE. It makes us KIND. It makes us able to be good LISTENERS. Everyone is always trying to talk over each other, you know? But not us. We tend to listen, to observe, more than we look to dominate a conversation. We have this in common, strangely I know, with those who have been fortunate enough to come out healthy on the other side of addiction. I swear, the most helpful, friendly people I've ever met have been addicts in the past. They sooo appreciate when others treat them with kindness that they will jump in front of a bus for you. And back to the women (or men, whatever). You need to realize that the flaw you see in yourself with blocking, yeah, it isn't ideal. It sucks. But that one little thing is COMPLETELY overshadowed by all the amazing things that stuttering/blocking makes us become! All the qualities I mentioned above. And the opposite sex (or same sex - whatever one is into) weighs those things in such a way that TOTALLY OUT SIZES the minor issues of face contortions AND they come to find it cute, endearing, even sexy. I know this for a fact. I'm not just trying to give a pep talk. These are facts I have experienced, without exception. I also know this because when I think of the "celebrities" that I find attractive, it's always the ones with a cute crooked tooth, or a bump in their nose, or a kink in their smile. Don't believe me? Look at Adrian Brody (giant sharp honker), Patricia Arquette (snaggle tooth) Drew Barrymore (lisp and mouth kink). And people ADORE these guys. Every woman I know gets faint over Brody. Ok, this shows my age but look em up. I'm sure there are comparables in your age group. The point is, you gotta realize you're unique and attractive AS A PERSON *BECAUSE* of your blocking. And if you can try to embrace that and OWN it, you will be fending off the ladies and friends with a pointy stick! You'll be sick of how much attention you get. I promise you this is the truth, at least as I have experienced it and seen with others who block/stutter. Look it's not easy, but try it, little by little. You'll see that kind people want to be around other kind people. Don't let anyone bring you down bc they themselves are down there. Get it?? They can't pull you down from ABOVE you. They try to pull you down cuz they're BELOW you. (Sometimes it's worth trying to pick them up, but...I digress). Heed these words! You will be glad you did 1 year from today. Cheers and good luck! Oh and watch that movie! A Fish Called Wanda. okthxbye