Same here, my family is most of what is keeping me alive. Otherwise I would have checked myself out a long time ago. Whoever said that no one is judging you for stuttering has to be a fucking moron. Every single person on this planet judges others. How you look, talk, and act are all judged. First impressions are everything; how am I supposed to feel when I cannot even formulate a coherent sentence half the time? Solutions..solutions..there are none for me. I have done CBT and speech therapy. None of which has helped in the long term. I'm not going to put myself out there because I've already tried it and felt way worse after. Looking forward to a life of meaningless grinding through work.