I work in sales now and have even done my fair share of public speaking. Excelled at both. I don't know if it would have been that way if it wasn't for the heartbreak I endured. Develop a ruthless eye, brother. I don't know if I would even take an accomodative structure. That would mean I consider myself lesser than my peers on some measure. I require no pity and I require no compassion. I have emotions pent-up for decades no others have. I have passion no others have. They don't value it as I do. And that's what keeps me on my toes and drives me to betterment. They take it for granted and have their feet swept under them. It's a game of wills, not appearances. You'll do fine as long as you keep at it. Let it drive you insane if it must.