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Again Hello, first off want to give some background, I live in a 3rd world country but haven't really been poor, cant complain. I just turned 18 and all of my life I spent it dreading this moment. Im super grateful for my dad, which has given me everything but most importantly a chance to study the career I wanted, which is expensive. But as a person, he has done a lot of mistakes, and let's say he has just done another one, as he is going to be in jail for at least a year. My life has been improving, I thought less and less of my stutter, and it was declining to a point where it only appeared in really high stress situations. But now I am at the lowest again, I'm just starting my career, which is both expensive and hard. Meanwhile my family is going to be barely surviving month after month, with the added burden of my career. I do know English, fluenty when I'm alone and when people ask me to speak, and it really hurts when everyone tells you why aren't you working in a call center, not responding and knowing deep down the reason why but never saying it. Now, I got about 3 months to figure out something, Im beyond scared to apply for a regular job, like mcdonalds, because outside the US, people aren't so forgiving for stuttering. Not only that, I'm going to be working at the same time I'm studying a difficult career. My family tells me everything is fine, but it isn't, and it hurts because the last time I felt this way was m