commentr/StutterOctober 16, 2019

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I'm an American expat working in the UAE. I applied for the job (military aviation field) online while I was living in South Florida. All seemed fine until I received an email that there would be a Skype interview. The anxiety caused by my stutter naturally made me so nervous, I was sick to my stomach. I didn't sleep much until the day of the interview. At the time, I was 9 hours behind them and had to be up at around 3am for the interview. I tried to think of past interviews (after my time in the army, I contracted all over and had to find ways to make it through travel interactions, friggin hard) and I found that introducing myself with saying right off the bat that I have a stutter helps me quite a bit. It doesn't help with my stuttering, but the tension is diffused quite a bit. Fast forwarding a little, the Skype window popped up, connection made, video comes in and I see 5 faces looking at me....I imagine the shock is almost palpable. Forgetting the fact that I was just wearing a shirt and tie in my undies and my 12 yr old beagle/rat terrier mix was licking my legs for attention, it thankfully only lasted less than 10 minutes. I think in talking with a stutter, that equates to about 3 or 4 eternities. They said good afternoon to me and I greeted them saying I have a 'slight stutter' because I was nervous. They just laughed it off very casually, asked me one technical question and 2 admin questions. Then the rest was shit-shooting since they were all former military as well. 4 months later I arrived here in Abu Dhabi. Been here 4 years now. My main problem now is, I hate that my stutter greatly impedes my desire to learning a new language with my childhood Spanish lacking, also.

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Anticipation & AvoidanceCoping & AdvocacySchool & Work

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Feared Words & NamesSelf-Advocacy & BoundariesEmployment & Career

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