i'm a Stutterer, but I can't imagine dating a Stutterer girlfriend

i'm a Stutterer, but I can't imagine dating a Stutterer girlfriend as a part of my self hate i can't live with another Stutterer like me it seems like i'm the bad guy but really I can't live like that i can't live with someone who speaks like me and remind every second of my life how my whole life is cursed and distorted i suffering and struggling to force people to accept me i'm a disabled but really i can't live with all that pain and see a mirror of myself each day