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Just Wondering.... ??? I was just wondering if this just happens to me or is a common issue between persons who stutter. While I´m alone and thinking I tend to DISCUSS with someone imaginary in my head all the time. Try to prove him wrong. Its like a compulsion because I do it everytime and regardless the topic. Its like I´m resentfull against other people so I engage in this activities. Besides being so wastefull of energy, It came to my mind the idea that I´m making the other person the "ENEMY". While constantly debating and arguing in my head about imaginary escenarios where I "win" I make the world of interactions between people far more "dangerous" or conflictual. Then, when the times come to speak with the real deal, I think I have much more chances of stuttering if I feel like I am talking to a enemy in a dangerous situation. And that is what I been doing all along in my solo time. Training my mind to feel that way about the other. Maybe If I change my internal dialogue into something more loving and accepting regarding the other person, when the time comes to talk to them I will see them different, so I will stutter less. Its like when you talk to a kid, or a baby you hardly stutter (unless there is someone else there witnessing the event). Besides he cannot judge you, you never make a baby your enemy in your alone-time. The same happens when you talk to a animal like a dog or you are alone. ​ I think some part of me really hates the other persons because I fell trapped with them. They make me uncomfortable when I am around them but thats not their fault so there is really no reason to hate them for that. Anyways along my life they trigger all my fears so my natural instinct is to "hate them". ​ Maybe I have to let it go and change my inner dialogue into something more supportive. If i can see EVERYONE like a baby or a pet, I´m possitive I will stutter less in front of them. Thanks for your time and your reading. Take care and keep going.