See , the thing is , my stutter isn't the typical repetition type , but I have blocks where the words just cease to come out, no matter what , then I'm compelled to substitute the word for another , which makes me even more ashamed . And also there's this feeling in the back of my head that I might be letting my parents down , making them feeling disappointed that their adult (teen ) son can't even talk , plus I've done nothing that might have made them proud of me , only embarrassed them at few occasions