Whats the point of being alive like this

Whats the point of being alive like this If u talk like us then no one will ever take you seriously and it really sucks how your life is 5 times harder and worse than everyone else's beacuse of something that is impossible to cure, i wish i was never born im just making everyone's lifes harder by not being to just talk like a normal person and im just annoying everyone around me, im sure that i would've been so much happier and i would've had much stronger connections with people if i was like everyone else why is life so c r u e l