Oh yeah, I don't really feel ashamed just annoyed but every time I block hard I look away the same way I look away when I think,,, maybe I'm unconsciously trying to jumpstart my brain by forcing it to think about how to talk or something ... Because when I stutter (like repeating or elongating sounds) I know how to say it but my mouth don't cooperate ? But when I block it's almost always like I forgot how to speak, like I have to stop and vaguely guess the word's mouth mouvements and then re say it ? So I would look away because I'm thinking about how to talk out loud more than shame I struggle with selective mutism so maybe my case is a bit different though ha ha