stuttering sucks. it's so hard to break into a conversation so I used t to stay quietest if the time. I still do now to be honest 20 years after I took a course that changed my life. sometimes we are just quiet people. I had a colleague who also stuttered. a different "cruel" colleague remarked to me how Mark's stammer didn't seem to hold him back socially, unlike me. almost like, you know, we are different people with different personalities. as a kid I never used to answer questions in class cos of my stammer. then, one day I found myself at the front of the class directly in front of teachers desk. it was like it was just me and him. suddenly I answered questions! then, in a different class I tried it from further back in the room, and I didn't seem to stutter (or it didn't bother me). for thr next 5 years or so I wasn't affected socially by the stammer. then at university (my final year) we were told we would need to do a presentation in front of the whole year group. then I thought "I can't do that, I stammer " after that my speech deteriorated for the rest of the year. to recap, stuttering sucks. I hope you find a way to get through it. maybe try and speak to one new person a day, the course inwent on is called Mcguire programme if you're interested.