The vicious cycle

The vicious cycle The pressure/ fear to not appear slow, unintelligent builds up soo much anxiety and nervousness, 99times out of 100... you stutter anyway and feel embarrassed. Then you descend into self loathing and consequently depression as you relive all the other horrible episodes. Here you may indulge in some habits you are trying to quit or overdo those you do occasionally i.e. drinking, smoking, porn, masturbation etc. You hate yourself some more and regret getting to this stage. You come to this sub to read others struggles and wins..then you reassure yourself you are not alone.