The world is more understanding than you think and you are better than you think.

The world is more understanding than you think and you are better than you think. Felt like I should share some thoughts today with anyone willing to listen. I'm 22, have worked in hospitality since 15 and usually my speech impediment (which is a mild to moderate block (*sometimes pretty severe*) has not been an issue as the places I've mostly worked at had their front of house separate from their back of house. Recently, however, the new job I've gotten has both back and front merged completely. At first I thought this would be okay and as I was in desperate need of a different job due to being unhappy at my former one, I made the change. It's been difficult to say the least. I did till on my first shift for 30 minutes and have rarely done it since. Why? Because I can't do it. With this job there's so many questions you must ask the customer and due to my nervousness and the little think-twice tricks your brain *loves* to play on you, I can't get the necessary words out. So what did I do? I spoke to the manager about it and she spread the word to her team leaders and all of them have been very understanding. Despite it being extra work for those who can do till, they've all been patient and taken on the extra workload for me, and in turn I work as hard as I can every shift. Today I spoke to the manager again and she assured me that my inability to do till isn't an issue despite being a core aspect in the running of this business - she opened my eyes. Unanimously I was chosen as the worker of the month just two months into this job. I get daily praise from everyone and this workforce is genuinely happy to have me, despite not being able to do till. All it takes is hard work and a good attitude and I promise you, things will work out. Maybe not today, maybe not next week, but they will eventually. Life isn't black and white, it's multifaceted and there are so many options out there that you don't need to have excellent speaking skills to flourish. And I don't mean flourish as in fat stacks and nice cars. I mean mentally. So, talk to people. If you're uncomfortable at a job it's always the best route to let your feelings out on the table as most people will get you. Next, if you're feeling down because you can't speak fluently and in turn it's ruining everything around you, take a step back and realise your worth. I thought I was a plague to this team but I'm the exact opposite. Realise your achievements, your capabilities and what you mean to other people. Life isn't about being perfect as nobody is. Yes, it fucking sucks not being able to do a very important thing but it was the hand we were dealt and unfortunately the most we can do is play our cards. There is no cure but from what I read accepting it and trying your best with your hand is the next best thing. No matter how worthless you feel I'm sure there have been many instances where you've shown your worth, both past, present and future, and no matter how alone you feel you're *not*. You're apart of a community, *this* community, and we are all here for one another much like my coworkers are for me. Chin up, you will be okay.