That was hard to read because you're describing what it was like for me. It was at this time though that I went to speech therapy for the second time. I am Australian though, so it was free but if you're able to afford it, please try it again if you aren't already. My stutter is not fixed, not by a long shot but it did improve and I can say a few words now without blocks or repetition, which is a long way from not being able to string two words together. I'm not going to promise that it will get better. It may, it may not but you have to try. I didn't get my first girlfriend until I was 23. I had girls ask me out in high school, but my confidence and self-esteem was so shot that I thought they'd be embarrassed to be seen with me. Which makes no sense because they asked me out. So I understand. I get it. I was unfortunately relentlessly bullied and mocked throughout high school which didn't help. And yes, it's not cute. People thinking it's cute fucking piss me off. Fuck that. It's traumatic. It ruins lives.