The bit about stomach pain and being red, panty etc.was so damn relatable. I found a job in a local bookstore with my pretty severe stutter, and people don't really seem to mind it that much (at least they don't show it haha). You can find a job too, but it's gonna be really hard to get into the mindset that people don't mind it. Tried speech therapy, didn't help, almost felt like it got worse because of all the pressure from me.