Yes I try to speak even tho I stutter. I used to avoid speaking, but now I speak regardless. I guess I am frustrated because I know it's possible not to stutter and speak normally . As I said as response to other comment I treated it too leniantly. My idea is to accept that I stutter and will stutter in the future but I will consider to calmly deal with it. There are things that can be done without a speech therapist. And I have been to one in the past, so I will use my knowledge to find a way to at least make it less frequent. The key is that I don't practice enough. I feel if I do I will surely notice something different. Also my mood plays a huge role on that. I will try not to be hard on myself but I can't possibly let it as it is. But yes stressing about it is counterproductive I agree. I will try to balance it out.