commentr/StutterSeptember 20, 2017

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Hi, thank's for taking the time to answer. Few weeks after my surgery (which was 2 years ago), I saw a speech therapist (well he presented himself as a physiotherapist that is also doing speech therapy) as requested by my surgeon for a better recovery. I had 10 sessions with this therapist where he tried to teach me how and where to put my tongue, gave me pronunciation exercise (mainly because surgery rearranged lips, jaw etc, so he was trying to warm that up) and facial massage. But he did not addressed my speech issue. As a matter of fact, i don't even know if he knew i had one since i was trying so hard not to stutter, spoke really low and with short sentences (Strangely i have no issue with short sentences of 5-6 words. IDK how to explain, i feel like when i say 5 words, i need 10 seconds "to recover" before saying another 5 words. But right now, i can't find the courage to try to see a real therapist for many reasons (Mainly due to my anxiety. As a matter of fact, i haven't told any of this to anyone, nor my parents, nor my close friends. I only feel comfortable addressing this issue anonymously. Besides, i'm still a student, don't have much money to spare for sessions and it is out of the question for me to tell my parents about that. Complicated situation over there too, but let's say they don't even have the slightest idea of how i feel right now because i'm pretty good at hiding it and they are also not the kind of people that take those kind of disorder seriously. I'm considering seeing a therapist (maybe both psychologist and ST) but not now. The mere fact of opening myself to someone is giving me nightmares. I think i need first to build some confidence which start by being able to make longer sentences without struggling.

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Emotional ExperienceTherapy & ProfessionalSchool & Work

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Anxiety & Social JudgmentSeeking TherapySchool & Academic Life

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